You're not sure that you love me, but you not sure enough to let me go.
Leave the Pieces - The Wreckers


The Update:

I'm going to use names, cause otherwise it's too confusing. They may or may not be real.

Greg - We talk occasionally, usually monosyllabic responses on one side or the other. It's awkward. He knows that I'm dating a lot. He's emailing a couple of girls. I'm sad that it's over, but at the same time - I'm not sure that the physical chemistry was there anyway. ugh.

Dominic - Still hanging on. He's coming over this weekend. I'm excited. We had a great time on our last date and I have high hopes for this one. I'm not convinced that it has forever type potential. But he's smart, interesting, sweet and mucho cute. Cross your fingers.

Joel - Still have not had "the conversation." It will. I promise. Really.

Carl - hot body. No brains. 1 date.

Lee - Oh. My. Great first date. So sweet. Nice restaurant. Coffee. A cuddling and a blanket by the lake. So sweet. Second date started really well but seemed to go downhill. We ended up cuddling on my bed which spanned the extremes of really nice and incredibly uncomfortable. The third date was a little weird as well. I really like him, he's really sweet, but.. I dunno. I feel like there is a but. I think it's over.

Mike - Holy freaking cow. Crazy hot sex on the first date. I finally thought I'd met someone interesting. He called everyday for a week after. Meh sex on the second date. Tells me he's getting a vasectomy. I decide he's a bit of a freakshow and try to call it off. He freaks out and tells me what a horrible person I am. Apparently I am horribly mean, controlling and I make everyone feel like shit. Hmmmm.

Sean - This one lasted 1.5 hrs. I was late. I felt terrible. He was psycho. He had pretty much decided that we were getting married. I told him the next day I wasn't interested. He flipped out. I'm really getting tired of the flip outs.

Chris - The boy from PEI who keeps calling in the middle of the night. He's sweet. But really LDR's suck. And PEI might be the definition of LD - but he has spontaneously shown up in my town. Interesting.

Andrew - Oh the frustration. I still have the hots for Andrew. But he is apparently not in the market for a real relationship - and his roomate thinks I'm cute. Did I call that or what.



I'm beginning to feel a bit like a loser magnet. What the hell is the matter with me. Either they are not really available, or there is something wrong with them. Why is everyone damaged?