Then I caught the waves wrinkle the moon
And they kissed my body just beyond the shore
I talked you into a stone and skipped you across the water
But it was me who was really sinking
Companion – Wide Mouth Mason

I was at Eric’s last night. It was lovely. Things are getting a little more comfortable in my head. I know he likes me. I know he wants me. Things are good with us.

However, I’ve been dropped a bit of a bomb by Mandar. I haven’t talked about Mandar in a while, because nothing exiting was happening. We’ve been exchanging some emails, nothing mind blowing, just nice friendly etc. He’s a good writer and I enjoy the exchange. He’s in India right now visiting his folks. I received an email yesterday nice normal except for 1 paragraph:



I had tough time dodging the request from my parents to attend the social functions/dinners with the parents of girls who had approached my parents. I seriously thought that if I would meet any girls even in social setting would be an act of breaching your trust and hence I stayed away from such social functions. My parents respect my decision will warmly welcome the girl I chose that is absolutely not an issue. Don't worry !!




Ummm..

So. I didn’t know what to think. He is really traditional, I know and respect this – however, until this point, I had no idea that he thought of me this way. I knew he was interested, cause usually when a boy writes to you all the time, that is what this means, however – wow. He’s not even meeting girls cause he thinks it would be a breech of my trust? I’m dating Eric. Mandar would not be a happy camper about that. So. I chatted with Lee about it. He helped me straighten out what I should do – I just have yet to do it. I need to tell Mandar that we are not dating, and that he shouldn’t worry about breeching my trust. But. Wow. How do I get myself into these things.

The worst thing, is that I really enjoy Mandar, he just lives so far for anything real to happen. I don’t want to hurt him, so I’m going to say something. I just. I dunno.. ugh.