shrinking

I've been chubby my whole life, and have spent a good part of my life more than chubby. But since I have changed the way I eat and have started working out, the strangest thing is happening, everytime I get on the scale, it goes down.

It's weird. I'm 25 years old and I weigh the same now as I did when I was 15. Weirder still is that it is 60lbs lighter than I was 2 yrs ago. I look at pictures of myself from then and I don't even recognize myself. But I still feel the same on the inside. I'm now very solidly in the "average size" category, but I don't feel it. I'm still surprised at finding cute pictures of myself, or being able to fit into a pants size I don't ever remember wearing.

A wedding is great motivation to slim down, and Josh doing it too has been so helpful! But now it's not even about the wedding, or fitting into the dress (although i did buy it in a smaller size than i currently wear, so i need to lose about 5lbs to get in it) but about seeing what i actually look like under all this, about saving myself from heart disease and diabetes which both run in my family, about not feeling like the fat girl anymore.

I'm on my way, and it feels really good.