I love the time and in between
The calm inside me
In the space where I can breathe
I believe there is a
Distance I have wandered
To touch upon the years of
Reaching out and reaching in
Holding out holding in
I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I’ll defend it as long as I can be
Left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand
I know this love is passing time
Passing through like liquid
I am drunk in my desire...
But I love the way you smile at me
I love the way your hands reach out and hold me near...
I believe...I believe
This is heaven to no one else but me
And I’ll defend it as long as
I can be left here to linger in silence
If I choose to
Would you try to understand
Elsewhere - Sarah McLachlan


He does this thing that is so cute that it makes my heart break. It's how he scratches his nose. It's weird. But it's so cute that I just want to squeeze him.

So, 'he' and 'i' are now 'we.'

It happened last night. We were chatting about how I had not yet told Joel that I was dating someone else. He seemed rather anxious about it. I realized that over the course of the conversation that he was anxious because he was scared that I still had feelings for Joel. I also noticed him using the terms "us" and "you're with someone." So, I said "so are we, we?" and he said "I dunno? Are we?" Which is frustratingly cute, as he has this habit of answering questions that I should already know the answer to with questions. Then he said. "I'm only dating you. I only want you. I'm not dating anyone else. I'm not looking to date anyone else." And I fell a little further into him.