I don't want a lot for Christmas,
There is just one thing I need.
I don't care about the presents.
Underneath the Christmas tree.
I just want you for my own,
More than you could ever know.
Make my wish come true,
All I want for Christmas is you.

He called today when he got off work. We talked, it was good. His plans to hang out with his son were cancelled so he asked if I was free. He thought it would be a good time to exchange presents. I arrived, slightly pissed cause Pete is being difficult. But we talked for hours. Not talked on commercials. Or talked over the movie. But sat across the table from each other and talked. It was so nice. It was like the beginning. I feel like I know him so much better. We talked about why his day was so shitty. We talked about Joel. We talked about our parents and our families and why christmas can suck so much. Its been a long time since we really shared and it felt really good.

We cuddled up on the couch and exchanged presents. He liked his. I’m glad. I’m looking forward to seeing how hot he looks in the sweater, and seeing if I ever get to try out his new sheets. He got me these beautiful white gold and crystal star earrings. I’m astounded by how observant he is. I wear a lot of little crystals and a lot of stars. He did a really good job. I’m blown away. And he got me a teddy bear, which I love. He is so soft. It’s one of the best christmas presents I’ve ever received from a boy. Stuff I would use and wear. Stuff that he thought about.

After we watched Pirates II and cuddled. It amazes me how he can read my mind sometimes. I left around 2:30 and I could tell he didn’t want me to leave. It feels really good. It feels really good cause I was feeling so confused about us. I was so worried that he was having second thoughts or that he had found someone else. Meanwhile he gets me a perfect and thoughtful christmas gift and we spend this amazing evening talking. But it also feels so good, cause I’m really happy. I’m excited to see my fam this christmas cause I am genuinely excited about the future.